I sat in the living room tonight surrounded by a group of incredible people who have quickly become close friends and who are so passionate and full of love.

Somehow or another, my steps brought me to this exact moment, hanging out in the middle of South America with a bunch of people who have become dear friends and don’t share my native language.

A graduate from the Bethel Supernatural School of Ministry in Redding, California came to speak at the house church that Chris & I attend tonight. He travels all around the world all year long and tonight he ended up in Lima, Peru teaching our group.

Jesus did two miracles tonight. I watched someones leg grow out right in front of my eyes. It was the first time that I have seen a miracle like that before. We pray for people and have seen a lot of miracles in Peru but it has always been an internal pain or ache that we have prayed for. This was the first time that I saw something as astounding as a leg actually growing out longer right in front of my eyes.

This week, Jesus also provided us with $5,000 to buy a van. To put this into perspective, that is about half of what it takes for us to live in Peru for an entire year. And Jesus just provided it within the same week that we made the need known. Mind blown. Heart soaring. This van means that we will be able to do two nights of outreach every week instead of just one and that we will be able to reach the women in San Juan de Lurigancho, which is where we went on mission trips all throughout college and a place that has always captivated our hearts! It also means that we can do a jail outreach at the women’s prison now. So, this is a huge miracle that enables us to reach a jail full of women and a whole different district as well as the center district of Lima where we have been going! That makes three incredible miracles in one week!!

This is how my heart feels…. like I’m standing on the edge of the ocean leaning forward, falling in. Like there is nothing holding me back from letting go and tumbling over the edge into something vast and beautiful. Like tears are brimming in my eyes because life is so sacred, so precious. Jesus Christ is so, so beautiful. So wonderful. So advenurous and wild and crazy and valiant and loving.

Jesus is so intricate. So personal. My favorite thing about tonight was that the guy who came usually speaks at big events and sometimes to thousands of people at one time. And tonight he came to our group of 6. He got there because a friend of a friend told him about it, some connections that people put together and finally he ended up with us because Jesus ordered his steps. My other favorite thing was that he didn’t even pray for the people who got healed tonight… we prayed for each other. Because every single one of us has the power to pray for healing and to talk to Jesus. Because every single one of us is a beloved son or daughter of God. Because Jesus died on the cross so that we could be healed and free and united with Him.

There are only 11 days left in the year and I’ve almost known Jesus for five whole years now and here I am, barely scratching the surface of what it means to be a daughter of the King. I feel my spirit bursting from within me and asking the one question that we all ask as children “Who am I?” My identity is there in the ocean that lies before me and I know that it is only going to get better, that this truth is only going to get more and more beautiful. I am beautiful. I am a priceless treasure. I am altogether lovely. I am destined to rule and reign. I am beloved. God is so proud of me. He loves me. Oh, His love for me is so great and so overwhelming, my heart might explode with this love!

These are pure truths about me. This is who I am. I am radically beloved. I am treasured. I am adored by God. And so are you!!!

And you guys, Jesus is miraculous. He is so much more than we can even comprehend. He is an endless ocean. And he created us because he loves us. We are his family. He is ours. This is the most beautiful thing that has ever happened. Jesus LOVES us! I look at Jubilee and I am totally obsessed with her. I think she is the most beautiful thing that has ever graced the face of the planet. Everything she does is precious. Every little hiccup or spit up or crying at 3am. I don’t even care, because she is mine. My sweet baby. And so just thinking about that kind of relationship with Jesus, me being his child, his baby, it’s just overwhelming. I love Jubilee so much in my imperfect way of loving and I still feel like this love is so huge, so grand, like my heart is going to overflow forever and ever and still have more to give. And Jesus loves me, loves you, wayyy more than that. His love is perfect.

What does 2015 hold? Adventure. Romance. Miracles. Relationship with Jesus is more than we can even dare to imagine. And at this point, all I know is that I am jumping into that ocean head first, because there is nothing more beautiful than being fully alive, living this incredible life with the one who created my heart and taught me to dream.

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